who am i?

   Photo Credit: Key Soto

who am i?

to be birthed

on this side of validated dreams

far away from a wall, a fence, a barrio, or a movement

that must claim that their lives do matter, too

 

who am i?

a person of (pale and blue eyed) color

who decides when and how

to celebrate

her one drop rule

her mixed match blend

or when to melt into

a palette of non-identity glamour

 

who am i?

to be placed

in so many of the right boxes

to be placed

at so many of the right times

 

who am i?

what did i do different

than They

than You

 

but who am i?

not to live out these american dreams

that shall otherwise go, (rest)

Undreamt

 

who am i not?

if not They

if not You

 

they told me

to take my deserved place

among the limited amount of stars

who dared an entitled belonging

 

yes, see they told me

and maybe i would start to see

only maybe

(because i was taught to believe)

and that maybe

(because i believe)

in They, in me

i mean even they keep telling me

that

 

maybe i do

maybe i am

maybe i am, We The People

 

more than They

more than You

 

stitched, placed

into

Red

White

& Blue

my boxes

my stars

my breath

my beauty

my thoughts

my being

my i

my White blood

sometimes

often

Deserve

need

Breath

Voice

Place

Dreams

 

more than They

more than You

 

and me

and i

and we,

 

These Deserving people,

Have worked so hard, (Goddammit)

To wash away

This one drop of color

And those never lived

and unremembered

blues

 

by Vicky Munyoz

        by Fallujah.